Its About Forgiveness

As I was getting ready to write this to you I didnt know all that I would say but as I started writing, I feel like God gave me something for you.
It is about forgiveness, one of the heaviest chains that we as people carry and some of us refuse to break it. If this doesn’t apply then you don’t have to read this any further but if it does, take heed.

People do things to us and they effect us on many levels. There are some hurts that we just won’t let go of. We relive it over and over again because of all the lack of understanding that we have about the situation. We even say things like, “how could they do me like this? I would never do someone I cared about like that.” That is not an unfair statement but there is something that we have to remember, how we deal with life is not the same as everybody else. But that is not even the greatest reason to forgive someone. The greatest reason to forgive someone is because we want to be forgiven. Just think about something that you have done that you’ve asked God to forgive you for, and He did. Now can we do the same for someone else? If God can forgive us then we should be able to do so as well. Just something to think about because none of us are greater than God. But if you think that I’m just saying something, here is a scripture to back it up; Matthew 6:14.
When we stop holding on to things of the past and give them to God, we will be free on the inside and that weight we won’t have to carry anymore.
It took me a long time to forgive because I felt that this person didn’t deserve it. But when I took that mirror and looked into it the reflection that I seen wasn’t them but me and I know that I made someone feel just as bad as that person did to me, yet I knew that I wouldn’t make those same decisions. I had to give someone else the same benefit of the doubt that I gave myself.

Its easy to be harder on someone else for the same acts that we would try to justify ourselves. But true growth starts with self reflection and what that reflection does is allow us to really put someone in our shoes. Just a little something to think about. It is easier to forgive than it is to carry the weight of yesterday; free yourself by letting them go, it is a very rewarding feeling. We will never forget but we will not let it dictate our lives anymore.
Stay encouraged and remember their is no one like you. You were created with purpose on purpose so live like you know it.

Written By: Frank L, Adams #427391 @Jpay.com

True LOVE Comes Through Understanding

We are called the United States of America, the land of the free & home of the brave and there are individuals brave enough to escape there country to take advantage of the benefits and enrich there lives with opportunity. So if they make it here safely and they are abiding by the criminal law, then they should be free. That’s what makes us the greatest nation in the world, people of different colors, shapes, sizes, intelligence, knowledge, wisdom, & understanding come together to create true Unity.

Over 90% of citizens of America were migrated to this country, within that percentage some were forced. The only true citizens of this country are Native Americans. Which is weird because, the people that are creating the laws and statutes or the decisions of who and what are allowed to come into the country are the ones that took over something that didn’t belong to them in the first place.

The end to Racism, Prejudice, and Stereotyping could never END as long as we see differences. It is true that Black Lives Matter, when you say that though your implying a difference in the life. Its in a Human Beings DNA to feel better or lesser than someone else at something, so when you apply color to the perspective, of course your going to create a idea that one particular shade of a person is better. There is no such thing as a minority if we truly believe that we are equal. You can’t ask for equality when a difference is implied, there is only one race that God created and that is the Human Race.

Its also true that God created each and everyone of us differently, but those differences were meant to be unified through fellowship in Love, Loyalty, Integrity, Honesty, and Righteousness. Which is supposed to happen through our beliefs or religious preferences.
Troy Oakes #891671

This is America

Hello!! My name is Terry but guys call me Washington, I’ve been dwn for 5 years so far. I’m 39yo & hve been doing poetry every since I could learn how 2 read, never really took it serious though. Now I use poetry as a way 2 escape, heal, cry, & love. I would love 2 share sum poetry from my poetic archives & I hope my poems dnt come off 2 dark or depressing but know these r my feelings n its rawest form, my life, my words!!!!

B4 I send a few poems I jus want 2 say part of my writing style is the length of my poems. I try 2 make my poems as short as possible so the message can hit hard, but on occasions one might get a little lenthy like this 1st poem. B4 every poem I will give an small introduction, but poetry is so deep each reader will see & feel something different….

Introduction (2-9-20)
N this particular poem I wanted 2 express generations of pain n a softer way 2 show the reader the basic reason of our anger, rage, disappointments & long term mental suffering. I wanted 2 show the reality of our situation.

Most of the people n America r foreigners but whites r the only ones that can call themselves Americans w/o the hyfen n it. We dnt say European American or England American, but we hve 2 label ourselves African-American or Black or Urban. Now I’m not knocking our native land or denying it but rather showing the never ending racism & hatred being shown.

This poem is 4 the people that still doesn’t understand why we r still upset & n pain & filled with rage. Also, I’m allowing the reader 2 see that the writer is finally coming out of denial, finally realizing racism is America & it will never change.. I call this piece, “Thankyou America.”

Thankyou America (2-9-20)
Now I understand. In the beginning when the constitution was written, We, were not n the plan. My great great grandfather was born here and yet we cnt call ourselves American…

Thankyou America. Thankyou 4 destroying our heritage, erasing our native tongue, & killing our native land. All our speeches all our marches, crys & tears has went in vain again, & then, President Trump is the new America while we still cnt call ourselves American.
Thankyou America. Thankyou 4 making a colorless color a race. Thankyou 4 instilling in us Hate, just 2 point the finger n disgrace, wondering why we r so enraged at your diner that publicly discriminate. Thankyou America, we try so hard & hard 2 be accepted & fit in. But no matter how successful, wealthy, & talented we are, we will never be considered an American..

Now I understand. When the Preamble says, we the people, WE, were not in the plan. We were live stock, free labor, sold & traded, beaten, raped & killed but never American.

Thankyou America. Thankyou 4 leaving a seat for us at your table. Thankyou 4 laughing when we tell a joke. Thankyou 4 cheering when we shoot the game winning shot. Thankyou 4 removing those physical chains & putting Us on nice designer clothes… Are we Americans now America, the answer is still No…

N e e d t o b e H I g h

The feeling of being high; the aura of intoxication; the euphoria of being inebriated; the climax of adrenalin, all to the point of weightlessness on multiple levels.

Chasing that high, that exhilaration holds the world in “consciousness without presumption of results or expectations of answers”. Just aloft in the bliss of living in the moment. So much so that, everything flows with you, and you flow with everything. Pure harmony existing as your real life.

There is no need to inhale anything more than oxygen.

There is no need to indulge in any type of spirits outside of the body.

No need to think or ponder a situation, being the true experiencer, the needed actions are lived out onto needed fulfillment.

This intoxication is produced by the manufactured love of living God’s energy from deep inside you, all the way to your pleasure full experience now. The high, is a divine consumption of all ancestry, every available life force flowing now, and the appreciation, to live through the potency of such a magnificent elixir. The fluid of life’s availability, surges was-to-is, celebrating the union of past and present with every drank of the truth; Oneness.

To be so connected to God, that every part of life that ever existed and exists now, is coursing through your being. This aura, this euphoria, this great power, this climax of adrenalin, this weightlessness, is that urge, is that craving, that desire for the Need to be High. Above the intent to belittle, flatter, or stagnate. Beyond the situations and circumstances that persist to harbor and ground any moment of elevation.

The Need to be High is so much more than elevation, it is the being free from all and being free to experience all, without boundaries or restrictions to or from being free. The Need to be High engulfs every portion of your being and opens you up to experience, being. Seeing life in the light of being so you, that you experience God in everything. Everything that you see, do, think, and experience is godly. Realizing, you are this High, you have always been this High, all you have to do ever, is be, and you maintain and evolve in your Need to be High. Flying in the space of God, alone, but with everything and everyone you need, under the influence of the power of divinity. Knowing, the highest you can get, is the God in you. This operates your Need to be High.

“Know thyself” Ralph Emerson
Keep your eyes wide mind wise while Ballin’ thru it All…
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Race and Racism in American Prisons, and America Herself

Jerry Metcalf #251141
Thumb Correctional Facility
3225 John Conley Drive
Lapeer, MI 48446
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As I sat thinking about how and what to write on such a sensitve topic, I kept asking myself where to begin.

Do I start with the fact that although blacks in America only comprise about 12% of the population, they also–stunningly–make up damn near 50% of America’s prison, jail, and detention facility population?

Or do I go further back and begin with the fact that anyone who lives in American inner cities (mostly blacks) is seldom afforded their Constitutionally guaranteed right to a trial by a jury of their peers, because when a poor person goes to trial in these United States and is found guilty, he/she is punished harshly (well beyond the norm) to make an example. That way, when the next young, poor, often black or brown, man or woman find themselves standing in a courthouse they capitulate. Because regardless of whether you are guilty or innocent of your crime, if you are poor and black in America they want you so terrified of that supper-long prison sentence that you take whatever “deal” they offer.

And the reason for this evil scheme is simple: nobody gives two turds about our most underrepresented communities. No one cares whether there is enough money to guarantee little black kids an education, let alone whether they receive the right to a fair trial.

So when those black kids grow up and are locked away for years and decades and lifetimes, they remember how they were treated their whole lives. They remember how the white–or mostly white–government held them back. They remember how the white–or mostly white–teachers in their overcrowded inner schools lacked the ability and the time to help them learn, yet passed them anyway. They remember how the white–or mostly white–police officers harassed them, beat them, and murdered them. And then, after all that, when they finally find themselves imprisoned in a world where they are the majority, all that anger and frustration comes boiling out on the new minority, the very same white people (or so they think) who screwed them over their entire lives. Only now those white people are also convicts.

To add fuel to the flames, the minority whites, not really understanding what is going on, and how this viscous cycle is so deadly, grow even more racist, or, even if they’d never had a racist bone in their bodies, they find themselves forced to mingle with racist individuals and gangs because they fear the black inmates so badly.

Luckily, over the last several years, I’ve noticed that as many of the level-minded convicts (black and white alike) start to mellow out and mature, they have begun to realize the truth. That the idea of white and black in American prisons–and across America herself–is a deceptive illusion. In prison there are really only two opposing teams: Team Prison Guard, and Team Convict. There is no Team White or Team Black.

And Team Prison Guard already always has the home field advantage, so we of Team Convict need to get our act together and realize we are all playing for the same team reguardless of race, creed, religion, sexual orientation, or anything else that sets us apart.

That’s why I am calling on all white Americans to join the Black Lives Matter movement. Not because they are black and we are white, but because here is a fight we can all get behind. Here is a fight that can unite us onto the same team.

The police in America have begun to kill people in unprecedented numbers, and are seldom held accountable. True, for every two young black men killed by police, there is only one young white man whom is killed. But this number, as lopsided and demented as it is, proves two things: One; that the police really are racist. And Two; that they are actually murdering people, whites included.

The only question I have, Dear Reader, is this: What are you going to do about it?

My name is Jerry Metcalf, and I wish to make the world a better place. If you do too, please join me @ Facebook.com.

The Truth

The other day I was approached by this guy named Joe. He asked me a question that I found I couldn’t answer quite as accurate as I should have been able to He asked “what is your perspective on the George Floyd situation.” And I stopped and thought, for the first time, about the situation. And the answer hurt me, I told him the truth. I said that I am certainly knowledgeable of what’s going on but that the situation did not affect me like I know it should. Although I’m white, I grew up in a predominantly black neighborhood in Flint, Michigan, and most of my close friends are Black.
This sudden coming to realization that the things that are going on in the black community that I’ve witnessed growing up in Flint And being in prison since I was 15 has not motivated me to get educated and try to help, hurts. It hurts it took this long and so much pain from my fellow peers for me to finally open my eyes. And it hurts to know that there are so many more people in the state of mind I was in out there still, and that needs to change.

I would just like to thank Joe, for asking me what he did. And challenging me to make a difference. I only ask the same for who ever reads this!
#BlackLivesMatter
-Isaac L. Bowling

rue LOVE Comes Through Understanding
We are called the United States of America, the land of the free & home of the brave and there are individuals brave enough to escape there country to take advantage of the benefits and enrich there lives with opportunity. So if they make it here safely and they are abiding by the criminal law, then they should be free. That’s what makes us the greatest nation in the world, people of different colors, shapes, sizes, intelligence, knowledge, wisdom, & understanding come together to create true Unity.

Over 90% of citizens of America were migrated to this country, within that percentage some were forced. The only true citizens of this country are Native Americans. Which is weird because the people that are creating the laws and statutes or the decisions of who and what are allowed to come into the country are the ones that took over something that didn’t belong to them in the first place.

The end to Racism, Prejudice, and Stereotyping could never END as long as we see differences. It is true that Black Lives Matter, when you say that though your implying a difference in the life. Its in a Human Beings DNA to feel better or lesser than someone else at something, so when you apply color to the perspective, of course your going to create a idea that one particular shade of a person is better. There is no such thing as a minority if we truly believe that we are equal. You can’t ask for equality when a difference is implied, there is only one race that God created and that is the Human Race. Its also true that God created each and everyone of us differently, but those differences were meant to be unified through fellowship in Love, Loyalty, Integrity, Honesty, and Righteousness. Which is supposed to happen through our beliefs or religious preferences.

Troy Oakes #891671
“Man Cave”

When you hear the term “man cave” the first thing that may come to mind is a place where men have created a safe haven, a getaway from his wife and kids. A home away from home sorta speak. You envision the largest television one could ever imagine mounted on the wall, perhaps two. Video games and controllers litter the room. His refrigerator indispensably rests in the corner. Sports memorabilia copiously line the walls creating the perfect ambiance giving evidence this is indeed a man’s place of residence. The man cave has famously been deemed a place he can go to drink as much as he wants, eat whatever his heart desires until he’s beyond full. There is no dress code and tawdry becomes the standard. The man cave is sacred and only chosen ones are allowed entry. Rules are implemented that only makes sense to those who are part of this elite highly touted “man cave.” A sense of adoration soon sets in.
On the surface there appears to be nothing wrong with a man having such an environment. It helps him unwind, relax, gather his thoughts in order to be more effective in his role as the head of the family. When considering it in this manner many are partial of the man cave.
But there is another “man cave” that each man possesses whether he lives in a house, apartment, car or a cardboard box. This one doesn’t come with decorative attractions filling a secluded room meticulously tucked away in the basement. There are no pool tables, flat screen televisions, or a bar stocked to please. Rather, this man cave is self-made and lies deep within.  
Just as a man will hide out in his luxurious man cave, numbing himself to the stresses that life presents, this same man will conceal himself inside his self-made man cave filled with past failures, character indiscretions, and hidden secrets connected with them. When this man is in his cave you will see lack of emotion, disconnect from loving others or being loved, identity issues and an abundance of pain. 
This same man will stand roughshod blocking the entrance to the cavern of his heart allowing the skeletons of his past to continue rotting away, festering, trapped inside while he masquerades through life as a man with no worries or fears, compromising his integrity, violating not only man’s laws but more importantly God’s laws.
He becomes more crippled and emotionally damaged with the continued neglect of his wounds. Each time a person tries to gain entry into his self-made man cave of emotional carnage he will lash out, berate, threaten, ruin relationships destroying the family unit, losing everything all for the sake of that rotting festering skeleton who remains locked up in the confines of his wounded heart, desperately wanting to be freed, but his cruel captor continues to hold him hostage afraid of the exposure, embarrassment, and ultimately, rejection by others if his skeleton dares to get out the closet. He’d rather remain scarred and maimed unable to make progress in his life.
I once lived in a self made man cave afraid to exit it and face the shameless looks, judgmental comments and the barrage of criticism that comes with taking another’s life. The transition one has to make in order to come out of this self man made cave is not an easy process. One must be willing to acknowledge his past failures and ultimately enter a relationship with God. Accept your past experiences and take responsibility. Gain power and control over yourself, and forgive yourself. If not for the acknowledgment of my past failures and dedication to Jehovah I would still be living in my cave protecting those skeletons. Allowing those skeletons the freedom to leave my cave has allowed me to live with purpose on purpose unafraid to pursue my purpose which is to share my past experiences with young men who are living in their self made “man cave” so they can release their skeletons before its too late!! 

Submitted by: Connell L. Howard #234626 @ jpay.com

Exodus from the Democratic Party-Pt 1

By: Richard Dyer-Bey

In this article I will be objective to both sides — Democrats and Republicans. Although, in certain parts I will express in these modern days how the Democratic party has and are taking your vote for granted.

In the year 2016, the United States Democratic Party was dealt its greatest historical blow since 1860 when Abraham Lincoln (a Republican) won the election. But this time, it was a non-politician, authoritarian, xenophobic, who became president of the U.S.A., and he has also turned the worldwide up-and-down. How? First off, Those who were registered Democratics voted Republican. This also has not happened since the (Anti-Slavery Republicans vs. The Pro-Slavery Democratics in 1860). No! truly I am not comparing Trump to Lincoln, although they do share similarities. How so? 1) Reconstruction of (1865-77), when Americans tried to rebuild a stable Union after the Civil War (1861-65). The deadlock inherited by Andrew Jackson (1808-1875) on Abraham Lincoln’s death (1865) over who should control Reconstruction and the hardened with increasing congressional hostility toward restoring the south to its old.position (Look at what Trump is trying to do — even though he is for the North – [New York]). 2) Republicans wanted to press home the Union victory by following the 13th Amendment abolishing slavery (1865) with full Civil Rights for the (New Class Of People [the Negro]), including the vote. What is Trump trying to do? Repeal laws & suppress the so-called Black vote! 3) Also, while Congress was not in session, Johnson implemented Lincoln’s policy of “Lenience” by giving amnesty in return for a loyalty oath! He also condoned [Black Codes], which practically reintroduced slavery in another guise. With this last act, let me state; JOHNSON WAS A FORMER DEMOCRAT — SO WAS TRUMP. . . You get the point?.

Now how many of you are tired of and wish your community was clean and free of drugs, violence and sirens? Police, ambulance and fire trucks, rushing to an unpleasantness scene everyday? This is why many have left the Democratic part. And this is why many voted for Trump (change, thinking he was a Republican) Conservative yes, if you know what I mean (Read my article CONSERVATIVE MOVE). But once you really understand who the Democratic party is and why you are living in poverty, crime ridden neighborhoods, blighted and vacant houses, your children being denied proper education, school closing and mass incarnation of loved ones. (Ask Bill Clinton about his Anti-Terrorist crime bill).

The Republican Party was founded in 1854 by dissidents of the WHIG, Democratic and FREE SOIL parties to unify the growing anti-slavery forces. Its first national nominating convention was held in 1856; J.C. Fremont was adopted as presidential candidate. Campaigning for the abolition of slavery and of polygamy in the territories, he captured 11 states. But Lincoln became its first Republican president, and in spite of unpopularity of the subsequent RECONSTRUCTION policies and the secession of the “LIBERAL REPUBLICAN PARTY” in 1872, the Republicans remained dominant in US politics, winning 14 out of 18 presidential elections between 1860 and 1932.
In an era of scandal, the Republicans consolidated a “pro-business” and “conservative” reputation with the nomination and election of William McKinley in 1896. His successor Theodore Roosevelt adopted progressive stance; he defected to the (Bull Moose) party in 1912.

Before continuing, it must be noted that, the Democratic party in 1860 after its defeat to Lincoln and the Republican party was so determined to keep the so-called Negro in slavery, ceded from the Union, thus began the Civil War.

Remember, during this time, — (1865-1877), the Republican party were anti-slavery, however, in 1866, when Congress reconvened with a landslide victory, the Conservative [Radical] Republicans took control. Their first Reconstruction Act of 1867 divided ten Southern states into five military areas with a major general for each. Under army scrutiny, so-called (black and white) voters were registered, and constitutions and governments instituted. In 1868, six Southern states were readmitted to the Union, followed in 1870 by the other four. By ratifying the 14th Amendment (1868), on Negro civil rights. (Yes, the so-called Negro had “voting rights” coming out of slavery.)

Historical facts: However, this was not the case at the time of these events I am about to mention. These events caused “The Lost of the American Republic,” for, when the first seven rebellious Southern states walked out of Congress on February 1, 1861, their secession from the Union was followed by that of four States in insurrection on March 27, 1861, (this is what Lincoln was speaking to in putting down the insurrection), and this act happened only three weeks after Lincoln’s inaugural address March 4, 1861:—- These states were:

1. South Carolina — Fort Sumter, a fort in Charleston, S.C., where the first shots in the Civil War were fired on April 12, 1861. (This act was equivalent to 9/11 today). When S.C. seceded from the Union 1860, US Major Robert Anderson received a rebel summons to surrender has garrison. He refused, Sumter was fired upon, and the war had begun.
The fort was retaken when Confederates evacuated Charleston in February 1865. Then;

2. Mississippi 7. Texas
3. Florida 8. Virginia
4. Alabama 9. Arkansas
5. Georgia 10. Tennessee
6. Louisiana 11. North Carolina